jensjourney

Good Morning everyone,

I did not get a chance to check in and blog like I wanted to this weekend so I’m catching up now.

Had a busy weekend with the baby shower I had for my girlfriend. I’m not going to lie I ate and drank horribly from sat through monday. I am now paying the price and exercising my behind off twice a day instead of once so that I can hopefully undo some of the damage. We’ll see what happens on Saturday with weigh in.

My brother got engaged a couple of weeks ago and his fiance’ asked me yesterday if I would be one of her bridesmaids….ok yikes.  I was honestly totally honored but….being that I’m over 200 pounds and she is 90 pounds (no I’m not kidding) and her very small college friends will be at her side as well  I thought “oh crap”. I was doing well with my commitments to loose weight before but now I have to really get my game on!!! I will not be the fat bridesmaid (being 35 at the time of the wedding standing next to 19 and 20 year olds will be enough) lol…I’m putting all my willpower and commitment to the test and I’am going to loose this weight!!! Wedding is on June 20th of next year so that gives me plenty of time to get it off slowly and not gain it back. I wanted to blog about this so it will hopefully keep me on track with this promise to myself to get healthy.

I also wanted to share that I finally I went down a size…I bought some new shirts and got them in a size smaller I was so happy…that means my tank tops I got will now fit too!!!   Thanks for letting me share. Have a great rest of the week.

Good Saturday Morning Everyone!  I’m excited to tell all my buddies that I lost 6.5 pounds this week after weeks of gaining weight. I’m back down to 210…209 has been the smallest number I have been able to hit since January…so my goal is to blow by that and finally reach my mini goal of 200….then I will set a new one.

 I’m going to try to blog on weigh  in days and on days when I’m in need of more motivation. I tried something different this week and I stopped telling my self that I can do this with out help. I opened up to one of my buddies to be my accountability partner. That has made all the difference in the world. I also started being more on top of writting down what I eat. I don’t want to eat something horrible because I don’t want to write it in my journal…lol That means I’m accountable for it. Just thought I would share I finally figured out that I do not have to be so anal I do need support there is no way I could do this on my own.

Have a great weekend! Thanks to everyone who helped me get back on track.

Hey everyone,

I can’t believe it is the second week of April already. We have had a couple nice days here this week and I got a little taste of summer to come. Let me say I’m not pysically ready. Really that makes me so bummed out. I don’t want to be able to wear a bikkini or anything like that I just want for this summer to be comfortable in my own skin. Next summer we’ll work toward the bikkini goal. (lol) I was out playing baseball with my four year old and we went to the park. I was exhausted and sweating my behind off…mind you it was probably only 70 degrees. Now what the heck am I going to do on the hot summer days when it is 95 out. I started on this journey back in January it is now 4 months later and I have only lost 8 pounds. Today is just one of those days that I just feel like I’m never going to win this battle. I have been on and off the wagon for 10 years why does this have to be so damn hard. I guess I just need someone to tell me they believe in me and I can do this. Right now I’m in a horrible mind set of I can’t.

Yesterday I went out and forced myself to buy some summer clothes in a size smaller then I am wearing now. I thought that might do the trick as far as getting me motivated to at least wear a size smaller then I am now. Let me tell you I put on those sleeveless tank tops this morning just to see how much work I really need to do to get into these shirts. Holy Crap a size smaller is a lot smaller. I looked like I had a wetsuit on not very cute or flattering. Our family is taking a trip to Florida at the end of June and you better believe I will need those sleeveless tees it will be hot their.  I just don’t know where to begin.

I exercised three mornings this week then ran out of steam and have not looked at my elliptical in two days. Same with my eating I did great for 3 days then ate like a pig.  I need to stop…I just don’t know how or where to begin. I told my hotrod team mates I was starting over this week I did not do to well with that. I just needed to get all this off my chest and try to find a place where I feel comfortable eating wise and exercise wise. Summer is right around the corner and I don’t want to wear my wet suit tops. Boo-Hoo

jenn