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Well the five pounds I lost last week came and found me. My week long eating spree using my birthday as my excuse netted me five extra pounds. Lucky me!! Although I must say I gave myself permission at the beginning of the week not to feel guilty when I went out with my family and friends to celebrate. So I’m feeling no guilt just very, very, uncomfortable in my shorts.

I have to use this week to work my tail off to loose those five pounds because we leave for vacation a week from Sunday. If I don’t loose the weight (the 5 lbs) I will be busting out of my clothes by July 1st when we come home. That will just make me feel miserable. I’m so excited to take the kids away and go to Universal Studios but we will be eating out every meal because we don’t have a kitchen in our hotel room. That does not leave much room for healthy eating. On the bright side we will be doing a ton of walking. Maybe it will balance out and I will stay the same or maybe I will only gain a few while I’m gone. How do you think I should go about this? I really don’t want to come back feeling like I do this  week.

Hi buddyslim family,

I have been told by my family doctor for 10 years just cut back your portions so you are eating about 1500 calories a day and you will loose weight. Now honestly I really thought I’m sure that works but it will never work with out exercise….hmmmm I was wrong.

 Don’t get me wrong I love to exercise (no really I do) but I have not been able to do as much as I want to because my ankle has been healing. So this past week I did one day on the elliptical because that is all I could manage and I ate right according to my doctors advice. I did not think for even a minute it was worth my time eating healthy without the exercise. But to my surprise I lost five pounds this week. So by no means what so ever am I telling you that you don’t have to exercise but I just wanted to share that I learned a little tid-bit this week.

I learned that exercising and eating healthy are both important but had I listened to my doctor all those years ago I probably would not be where I am now. I always thought why should I bother exercising if I’m not eating healthy and vise a versa why should I eat healthy if I’m not exercising. Well it just goes to show you how wrong I was. I was unable to combine the two this week and I still lost due my eating habits. Now I have opened my eyes and realized the healthy eating should be done anyways regaurdless of weather or not I can exercise. I just let that be my excuse for the last two weeks I was recovering…I don’t have to eat healthy because I can’t exercise…guess I was wrong and the doc was right. Gee what a surprise.

Hey buddies,

I have been down but not out. My ankle is healing slowly I got the go ahead to start up my exercise in small amounts this week. I’m so excited to get back on the elliptical. I was 204 when I hurt myself and now I’m 210.5 I have to do some damage control. I want to be able to loose 8 pounds before we leave for vacation on June 22nd. I behind on my goal of 165 by end of August but hopefully if I can pull it together I can be in the high 170’s.  

 I want to apologize to all my buddies. When I sprained my ankle I kind of shut down and got really depressed. I should have stayed on line and talked about it but I did not. So I’m sorry if I have not been there for everyone. I will be trying really hard to not let myself sink and withdraw when I’m feeling down and out. I guess I feel like I always have to be happy and excited to be online or no one will want too here what I have to say….I have to learned that  is not the case. So once again I’m sorry buddies I’m going be here online happy, sad, mad, or whatever so watch out…lol Thank you all for not giving up on me and sending me sweet messages…you guys are the best!!

Good Morning everyone,

I did not get a chance to check in and blog like I wanted to this weekend so I’m catching up now.

Had a busy weekend with the baby shower I had for my girlfriend. I’m not going to lie I ate and drank horribly from sat through monday. I am now paying the price and exercising my behind off twice a day instead of once so that I can hopefully undo some of the damage. We’ll see what happens on Saturday with weigh in.

My brother got engaged a couple of weeks ago and his fiance’ asked me yesterday if I would be one of her bridesmaids….ok yikes.  I was honestly totally honored but….being that I’m over 200 pounds and she is 90 pounds (no I’m not kidding) and her very small college friends will be at her side as well  I thought “oh crap”. I was doing well with my commitments to loose weight before but now I have to really get my game on!!! I will not be the fat bridesmaid (being 35 at the time of the wedding standing next to 19 and 20 year olds will be enough) lol…I’m putting all my willpower and commitment to the test and I’am going to loose this weight!!! Wedding is on June 20th of next year so that gives me plenty of time to get it off slowly and not gain it back. I wanted to blog about this so it will hopefully keep me on track with this promise to myself to get healthy.

I also wanted to share that I finally I went down a size…I bought some new shirts and got them in a size smaller I was so happy…that means my tank tops I got will now fit too!!!   Thanks for letting me share. Have a great rest of the week.

Good Saturday Morning Everyone!  I’m excited to tell all my buddies that I lost 6.5 pounds this week after weeks of gaining weight. I’m back down to 210…209 has been the smallest number I have been able to hit since January…so my goal is to blow by that and finally reach my mini goal of 200….then I will set a new one.

 I’m going to try to blog on weigh  in days and on days when I’m in need of more motivation. I tried something different this week and I stopped telling my self that I can do this with out help. I opened up to one of my buddies to be my accountability partner. That has made all the difference in the world. I also started being more on top of writting down what I eat. I don’t want to eat something horrible because I don’t want to write it in my journal…lol That means I’m accountable for it. Just thought I would share I finally figured out that I do not have to be so anal I do need support there is no way I could do this on my own.

Have a great weekend! Thanks to everyone who helped me get back on track.

Hey everyone,

I can’t believe it is the second week of April already. We have had a couple nice days here this week and I got a little taste of summer to come. Let me say I’m not pysically ready. Really that makes me so bummed out. I don’t want to be able to wear a bikkini or anything like that I just want for this summer to be comfortable in my own skin. Next summer we’ll work toward the bikkini goal. (lol) I was out playing baseball with my four year old and we went to the park. I was exhausted and sweating my behind off…mind you it was probably only 70 degrees. Now what the heck am I going to do on the hot summer days when it is 95 out. I started on this journey back in January it is now 4 months later and I have only lost 8 pounds. Today is just one of those days that I just feel like I’m never going to win this battle. I have been on and off the wagon for 10 years why does this have to be so damn hard. I guess I just need someone to tell me they believe in me and I can do this. Right now I’m in a horrible mind set of I can’t.

Yesterday I went out and forced myself to buy some summer clothes in a size smaller then I am wearing now. I thought that might do the trick as far as getting me motivated to at least wear a size smaller then I am now. Let me tell you I put on those sleeveless tank tops this morning just to see how much work I really need to do to get into these shirts. Holy Crap a size smaller is a lot smaller. I looked like I had a wetsuit on not very cute or flattering. Our family is taking a trip to Florida at the end of June and you better believe I will need those sleeveless tees it will be hot their.  I just don’t know where to begin.

I exercised three mornings this week then ran out of steam and have not looked at my elliptical in two days. Same with my eating I did great for 3 days then ate like a pig.  I need to stop…I just don’t know how or where to begin. I told my hotrod team mates I was starting over this week I did not do to well with that. I just needed to get all this off my chest and try to find a place where I feel comfortable eating wise and exercise wise. Summer is right around the corner and I don’t want to wear my wet suit tops. Boo-Hoo

jenn

Hey Everyone! Happy Easter! I hope you are all having a nice day with all those that are important to you. I’m in charge of Easter dinner this year so I will be getting my “crazy on” in a little while. I thought I would blog in the calm before the storm. I have had a lot of ups and downs this month with the boys being sick so much. I have not taken charge like I really wanted too in March and loose weight. The month is almost over and I can’t believe I’m the same weight I was at the end of February. I loose I gain….I loose I gain. I have been doing this for 10 years it gets so damn frustrating. I could blame my kids and say I’m just exhausted (wich I am) but I could have taken the time to eat right and exercise and I choose not too. I let my excuses get the better of me. If I stay on this road I’m going to just continue to spin in circles. I need to step up my game and start taking care of me. I let myself put myself last. I do it on my own…I know I’m busy but really that is no excuse. I don’t take the time for me. I’m burned out, tired and frazzled, that will never change unless I take a step back and put me first.  So the point I’m trying to make is…I’m going to try my hardest to make a healthy life style my first priority….an hour a day to exercise and let my mind wander before all the choas of the day begins. I really need to take the time to eat better…I deserve some time to actually sit at a table and eat my breakfast, lunch or dinner. Usually with the exception of dinner I’m standing at the counter doing a 100 other things and shoving my kids left overs in my mouth as I multi-task. I’m blogging about this because I want to be held accountable for my actions. I want a fresh start Monday morning with out all my usual excuses getting in the way to hold me back. I’m going to step it up and hopefully will be feeling so much better this time next month. I deserve this!!!

Jenn

Hi Everyone,

It has been awhile since I blogged. I guess I’ll start by saying I have weeks where I’m doing great and weeks like this one where I’m not. I hate the babysteps forward and backwards. I wish I could take the momentum I feel when I’m first excited about something and hold on to that feeling so I don’t fail. Last week I hit my first 10 pound total loss then this week I ate probably 1/4 of it back. I’ll know for sure tomorrow.  I thought maybe if I blogged today it would help get me back in the game. My husband and I are going away for the weekend. And I hope to on Monday morning to have left my excuses and negative attitude back at the resort and come home with out them. Well have a great happy healthy weekend.

Hi buddies,

Well  yesterday it was one month since I started this official journey on buddyslim. Let me just first say I have never been more inspired to loose weight in ten years then I have been now. All my buddies that I have connected with over the last 4 weeks are so awesome. They pick me up when I’m down and encourage me to do better. I have only gotten that kind of support from my hubby but sometimes you need more then that. All I can say is you guys are great!!!

So where am I a month into this?

I honestly am not where I hoped I would be at this time….but thats ok.  I started out loosing 7 and a half pounds…fell off the wagon for a week…got back on…got back off…uh oh gained back all the weight was back up to 219…got sick for a week…got back on the wagon…now down to 216. Only three pounds in a month not exactly a stellar job…I was hoping to be at my mini goal weight by now. But I did learn that this is hard work harder then I ever thought but I can and will do this. I’m motivated to reach my mini goal weight by end of March or close to it. I will not hit March’s end and only have done 3 lbs…that is a promise I’m making to myself.  So I’m a little disappointed in myself but I’m also proud of myself for still fighting the fight. Have a great week everyone.

jenn

Hi all had lunch out today at Ruby Tuesday. I did really well and only had the salad bar with lite dressing. I’m so proud of myself and Im full non the less!!! My son had chicken fingers and french fries…and a chocolate chip cookie that was to die for. It took everything I had not to snatch the cookie from him and shove it in my mouth. I almost licked his fingers at one point to get the gooey chocolate off then I got a hold of myself. I feel so much better for not even taking the littlest bite. Yeah me!

Jenn